Stellar Nebula: Birth of a Star(seed)

My name is Summer. I’m a 31-year-old Gemini from the Pittsburgh, PA area. I have three-year-old twin boys named Jordan and Julian. I am the oldest of three children to my parents, Fred and Michelle. Although my physical body was born in June, my spirit has been around far too long to have as much knowledge as this 31-year-old body does.

When I was eight, my uncle (who has since passed) brought a brand-new digital camera over. Upon taking my picture, I was surrounded by “orbs”. It being 1998, nobody had any idea what these were. Everyone thought it was a malfunction with the camera. My uncle returned the next day with information regarding the orbs, which is also when everything changed.

As a teenager, I was always drawn to the paranormal. The “scary”. The different stuff. I was also an incredible leader, softball player, and older sister to my siblings (now 21 and 23). In college, I would ghost hunt. I would hang out in a cemetery at night, with my digital camera, and capture orbs. Then, I would go back to my dorm and research the different colored orbs and their meaning or energy. What was frightening to some, was fascinating to me.

Inevitably, in my young adult years, I experienced the deaths of many loved ones, followed by a dream that contained messages from the individual who had passed. The dream would occur within a week after they had passed. I always attributed it to my subconscious being focused on the sadness associated with their death.

But then, the dreams continued. I would have stressful dreams, and I would see a deceased loved one in the middle of the chaos of the dream, and I would talk to them and immediately wake up. During all of these dreams and visits, I would always wake up wanting to see and talk to that person more. But the dreams would happen months apart, when I least expected it.

Fast-forward to my 30’s. I’m a mother of twins, who gets very little sleep to begin with. In my late 20’s, my dad disclosed to me that he had what he referred to as a “voice” who would tell him encrypted messages that, he learned, were directly related to his current situation(s). The synchronicity begins. My dad and I talk about something, then the next day it happens. Or, my dad and I talk about someone we haven’t seen in years, and we see them two days later. Around this same time, I start experiencing sleep paralysis, and I’ve been in a relationship with my partner for about six months at the time. During the sleep paralysis, I always see a person that I don’t consciously recognize. Nothing is said, but I am scared. I’m screaming trying to wake up, but every time I think I wake up, I realize that I’m not actually awake. So, naturally, I begin to Google why I’m having sleep issues (since I’m already so sleep-deprived).

In addition to my Google-diagnosis of why I’m having sleep issues, my partner (who is an Atheist) and I have continual, deep discussions about religion. I was raised Catholic, but at a young age realized that I felt uncomfortable with the imposition of a fearful God. I had many questions about the Catholic Church, so I just kind of identified as a “Christian”. So, while I’m on Google, self-diagnosing, I also began to research the history of Christianity. The answers I found changed me forever.

I won’t share my research findings here. I think that is a journey that everyone needs to take and interpret for themselves. But I will say this: I feel lost. I feel like now that I have the answers I was looking for, what am I supposed to do now? How could I have believed my archaic beliefs for so long? Who can I share this information with that will actually hear it? My dad’s worried that I will become an atheist; I tell him that I’m finding the source of my faith (which is totally, exactly what I’m doing). So, naturally, I started looking for people that share similar mindsets in spirituality groups on Facebook. This is where I was lucky enough to meet my friend, Megan.

It originally started with a free reading. I think in the first reading, Megan mentioned spiritual awakening. This resonated highly, because in addition to this research scavenger hunt I went on, I also began to meditate heavily. My meditations were deep, meaningful, visual, and relaxing. So when Megan first mentioned a spiritual awakening (forgive me, I can’t remember the exact details of the reading), I felt compelled to continue my journey.

Fast-forward again to tonight. Megan and I have been friends on Facebook for a few weeks and I received a Transit Chart reading from her. I kid you not when I say this: IT COULD NOT HAVE BEEN MORE ACCURATE! Everything in this novel I’ve just provided for you, ALL of it! Was right there in her reading! So, I tell Megan, “This is incredible, this resonates A LOT with me, etc.” And I proceeded to tell her a much more condensed version of the previously mentioned novel. Turns out, HER story is just like mine! I believe that it is not by chance that Megan and I have met; just as it is not by chance that you’re reading this story right now, searching for your own answers. Although I’m still learning, and will always be learning, I’d like to give Megan proper recognition in her contribution to my spiritual journey. I’m very much looking forward to learning together with Megan and with anyone who is reading this!

And with that, a Star(seed) is born!